Monday, October 30, 2006

newton versus brahmagupta

in the words of "baba", the difference between a scientist and a rishi comes by understading the difference between "knowing" and "learning".

there had been many mathematician in the west trying to solve the intricacies of many different equations, and there was brahmagupta, just saying "chalit kalit vargo vivechika", the roots of the quadratic equations.

readers, please do not jump to the conclusion trying my effort as the defining grounds between "knowing" and "learning". it is another thing that i wanted to point out here.

for me it is not the fight between the east of know all and/or the west of learn all,
but it is the sweet confluence of the two.. and the joint lesson for me says..
"you should know that you need to learn, and you should learn what you need to know."

baba does the magic again!

Sunday, October 29, 2006

the transition from professional to academic life

I think this person likes me, the person named God. he has given me many, and still keeps on giving many good experiences to me with time. and one such was this recent transition of mine. the transition from professional to academic life, as opposed to the many others from student to professional life.

the design of the timing analyzer interface (details of which i shall avoid for the benifit of my readers) has been one of the best experiences of my life. and i hope neither me, nor jogi ji will ever forget the endless up-downs i used to make between the ground floor of synthesis and the first floor of the timing analysis. and i am really thankful to mahendra khalsa for at least proving my efforts fruitful in the end.

funnily to fulfill my desire of pro-activeness, i did take many parts of the timing analyzer in my own hands. and i really used to get surprised seeing the managerial delays in the project. and then i made the biggest mistake of my career, trying the side-development of the prototype analyzer by myself. i was working double, that meant double the work and half the results in ST-FPGA. a particulary bad decision; that was always suggested by Jogi's smile when i reported him the delays at the interface :)

i was about to lose it, and just when i was about to loose it, our very own baba came to my rescue. he gave me the lesson that i have always kept by my side, ever since then. and that is the beauty of baba too, he will say things so simply, that they go through your head. "you don't work by yourself, and you wait for people to ask you to do it". soon i found myself doing all the things falling in place, and the really ironic part came when i was assigned the job of timing optimization by none other than jogi ji again. he will smile when he reads it, because he knows that i was bad at it :)

but things are changing now, and though no one says it. but i can see the expectations of pro-activeness again

Saturday, October 28, 2006

what has happened to me?

always known as the absent minded professor, i had already earned the reputation of being uninformed of most of the things in my office. things which included my salary slips, my locker and car keys, my insurance papers.
but it was a time when i really used to enjoy my absent mindedness. it would be fun reaching the desk in office and suddenly saying to myself "shit!! i did not bring the pen-drive along with me." and i would then treat myself to a leisurely walk from the desk to the parking lot for my lovely "zen", and then an expression again "shit!! left the car keys at the desk!!"
it is not age for sure that has been getting on to me. but is it then THE Cornell pressure!! hope not, simply because i am not taking any!! :)
my friends are really concerned, and now am getting irritated too at this absent minded attitude of mine too!!
hope to get rid of it soon!! need some major re-organization in my life.

Thursday, October 19, 2006

remembering names for bhabhi

चमकते हुए उस कपाल पर, देखी मैंने एक स्मित लकीर,
मन हर्षित हुआ जैसे, किसना को देखे कोई फ़कीर।
आभास हुआ जैसे मित्र मेरे, तुम बात खुदी से करते थे,
मुग्ध मन से जब मुझे सुनाते, अपने बचपन के चर्चे थे।
तब देखा मैंने तुमको कभी-कभी, फिर गिरते गहराई में,
जैसे "फिर" सोये थे कुछ पल तुम, अपने दुख की परछाई में।
फिर क्षितिज पर तैर तुम, सुर्य नवीन से उदित हुए,
हठ करते इस बाल-राम से जैसे, इश्वर फिर हर्षित हुए।
आशिष हैं मेरा हंसो सदा तुम, यूं जीवन आगामी में,
जैसे खेले सुर से कोई, मधुर जीवन रागिनी में।
- आभास

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

पं. नरेन्द्र शर्मा

आह! अन्तिम रात वह,
बैठी रहीं तुम पास मेरे,
शीश कांधे पर धरे,
घन कुन्तलों से गात घेरे,
क्षीण स्वर में कहा था,
"अब कब मिलेंगे ?"

आज के बिछुड़े न जाने कब मिलेंगे ?
"कब मिलेंगे", पूछ्ता मैं, विश्व से जब विरह कातर,
"कब मिलेंगे", गूँजते प्रतिध्वनिनिनादित व्योम सागर,
"कब मिलेंगे", प्रश्न उत्तर "कब मिलेंगे"!
आज के बिछुड़े न जाने कब मिलेंगे?

Sunday, October 15, 2006

a good day

कहीं तो होगा किसी वसुन्धरा के आंचल से खेलता, मन मेरा किसी बादल को देखता हुआ..
पुछ्ता जनक से इस अन्जान स्रुष्टी के अनन्त रहस्य.. फिर बढ जाता ब्राह्मण बने किसी और ठौर की और..
कोई तो होगा जो उसे वापस बुला सके.. की शायद अब गौण सम्पूर्ण हो चला हैं...

Monday, October 09, 2006

i have been like this since my childhood. and i still remember the heartahce i had when one of my dear friend's father got transfered from kota. i have not seen, neither met that friend since and i do not know if i will ever find him again in the more of this world. especially losing hopes after repeated failures of the technology gurus of google, orkut, linked-in in these ends.

they say that small incidence make great impact, and it did to me too. don't know if it was similar incidences like above,or if it was inherent in me, but i always was really worried of losing touch with my dear friends. time runs fast; and it is smart enough for cutting threads of moments between friends to run fast. the thought always makes me smile, the burglar knows how to steal moments from others to add to the ticks of its own self.

days have past, and i am finding myself getting more and more engrossed in the business of the hectic class schedules, and the beauty of ithaca that needs ages to capture! and as i am getting more "busy" i can sense the "losing touch" factor coming into play again.some people complain that i am not keeping in touch. and i pass the complaint to some!

for the ones who are not keeping in touch, this becomes tricky :)
all i can advise them is to remember that technology will never be all-encompassing, for the universe shall always have corners undiscovered.
and for the ones who complain that i am not keeping in touch,
believe me that i believe in what i wrote!!

हाथ छुठे भी तो रिश्ते नहीं छोडा करते
the line of a hindi ghazal that i always used to believe since i understood the meaning of this line!

Invicticus - William Ernest Henley

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from Pole to Pole,
I thank whatever gods may be,
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud,
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find me, unafraid.

It mattes not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the Master of my fate:
I am the Captain of my soul.